College and life

I have found myself drowning in my own thoughts many times and it feels like a true mess when you don’t know how to escape from your own mind that works like a machine. Going to college has made me more anxious than I have ever been but also more aware. I personally dislike public transport just because I find it hard to be surrounded by a lot of people but there are good things about it too. It takes me about an hour to get to college so I stare at Zagreb’s beautiful architecture, take out my planner and write and write and write during my ride. I write down my feelings, my thoughts, my ideas but I also write what I hear and see and believe me, a lot of things happen in public transports so there are a lot of things to see and hear. I see how people look on Monday mornings, I see their stressed faces while going to work and doing things they probably don’t like, I see 16 year-olds smoking while waiting for their buses to arrive and I see old people selling fresh fruit on stands trying to make some money to survive. Coming home from college on a cold winter night makes me accept the fact that things don’t always work out the way I want them to. I will fail my exams a lot of times, I will lose my motivation and I will have to try hard until I succeed. At the end of the day, those things will make me work harder because hard work and effort can’t betray me or you or anyone. College is a challenge, life is a challenge in general but also an opportunity that a lot of people don’t get. No matter how sad it makes me to hear the way people talk to each other, it also inspires me. It inspires me to keep being nice on Monday mornings when people least expect it.

love, Albesa.